Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Adjusting

I've been a mother for a little over three months now and feel a little more experienced. Watching my baby grow is an amazing experience--he babbles now, smiles widely when he sees us and seems to find many things funny. He is also almost entirely nocturnal, something that we're trying unsuccessfully to remedy.

As I feel more confident in my maternal skills and my ability to feed my growing boy, I'm also starting to recover my interest in clothing and looking good. I've not lost all the weight I'd like (I'm 2 lbs heavier than at my post-baby thinnest), partly because of the lack of sleep, the need to resort to sugar foods to keep me awake and my relatively sedentary lifestyle since having Severin. Now that the weather is better, I'm taking him on regular walks (I'm the only one doing the walking--he sleeps) and feeling more like I'm part of the world. I don't really have the time to shop and am still limited by the same breast feeding dress restrictions, but somehow I'm beginning to come back into the world. It feels like I have the best of both worlds.

While I don't really have the time to shop for myself, I've been stocking up on baby clothes. The options for boys may not be so great, but I'm charmed by stripes, rompers and little knitted onesies on my baby boy.

1 comment:

Quinn said...

You sound so happy and content. I'm so glad for you. I remember Maizie's infancy as being quite difficult for me. It took me a long time to feel like myself again. It really is as you say, a feeling of having to transition back into the world.